12 Feb 2010 Food for thought

I have just been diagnosed with a mild case of Polycystic Ovarian syndrome.
Polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) is a condition of unknown cause. It is associated with problems such as irregular (usually less frequent) menstrual cycles, excessive hair growth, achne, obesity, infertility, and the possible development of diabetes and osteoporosis
Treatment for PCOS depends on the associated problems and can include weight reduction, hormones or - in some cases - an operation.
The case that I have is, as I mentioned before, only mild, but it is really messing me around! I have become SUPER emotional, thave been feeling squeemish and bloated, my face has broken out in a few spots that I have done nothing to deserve, and have bad a weight spurt, all things I have before assosiated with pregnancy, only I'm not pregnant as far as I know . . . I wasn't when I had the ultra sound a couple of days ago that they could see . . .
Anyway, I had my first hinky experience in December, when I missed my cycle completly, (thought I was pregnant, but the test showed negative), then I had TWO cycles in January - went straight to the doc, who took a blood test, which showed nothing. Had the ultra sound, which showed one ovary was producing twice as many eggs as it should, and for the most part, they are all imature. Went back to doc, who said that I could go on the pill, and moniter the problem this way and learn to live with it, or I could fall pregnant and possibly cure it.
Well, wot d'ya recon I chose??
We have been trying to fall pregnant since December, but my wacky hormones have rendered me almost infertile, so, while falling pregnant is not impossible, it will be difficult. We are up for the challenge, though, my husband and I . . . I yea!
Erm, in the mean time the doc has advised me to try to loose some weight (even though he stressed that under normal conditions I have the right weight for my height), and he wants me to see a specialist, which is fine, as I already have an appointment with one next month (which I made last month so I could plan a safe pregnancy plan with him (!) as I always have birth complications.
I have been walking for an hour every morning since my first weight gain, and doubled my normal exersizes, and have gotten back down to my original weight, but would love to shave an extra five kilo's. My appetite has diminished, but only because I am increadibly anxious, and my nervous energy is through the roof! Also I have started taken iron and folic acid.
Yes, I am scared. I do not want to become an infertile, bloated diabetic. But I have a plan, a lot of faith, and incurable optimism! Now I shout fearlessly "BRING IT ON! HIT ME WITH EVERYTHING YOU GOT!!" And then I crawl away quietly and hide till me trembling stops.
  I actually just went to the doc recently for a check up, and I was feeling great. You know, emotionally stable and not bloated at all! Anyway, the doc said that it looked like my body was fixing itself up, by itself!
Dare I say I am cautiously optimistic?
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Naw! I'm over the moon! *punches the air* Yeeeessss!!!

Yep, in my third month of this nonses, I'm hoping like mad that my next period, which is due in about 12 days, is on time!!!
I have lots to distract me, though, and I'm trying very hard to allow myself to be distracted, as I can be very singular minded about problems till I resolve them, and this problem's resolution needs to be waited for.
I hate waiting.

Probably am worrying too much, but it helps me to cope in a weird way when I overdramatize my feelings . . . .
LOL! And all the children have put in an order for ' a baby brother, please!"
 I was just having a conversation with my Mum about it, and she said that HER mum, (my Nanna) had the same thing I do, and then she fell pregnant with her middle child and it all cleared up! Which is what the doc said may happen with me!